View from the Left Coast

Every year I hate this day. And it never gets any better.

Every year I relive the first 24 hours as if it were a movie.

But it’s sad that I still dream at night that its all a dream and it never happened. But he’s always stuck at 13 and I’m always the older sister who didn’t treat him right (I don’t think that’s completely true because he knew I loved him. I guess he just didn’t know how much.)

http://www.teenscreen.org/about-the-center

Damn - i haven’t posted in months. But i am in a list making/checking off mode. And I thought i would review my resolutions for this year…

1. Move out of your shit-hole apartment - I IDID do this. And its not a bad place. Actually its pretty nice.
2. Get driver’s license - Nope
3. Find an accountant - Yes
4. Appointment with gynecologist - Yes. Now I just need to get a mammogram
5. Reduce Trashy Web Browsing - sort of
6. Wash face thoroughly every night and moisturize - not at all
7. Be more Green - yes! I recycle as much as I can, I don’t use plastic bags if I can help it. Ride my bike to work. I am definitely more green
8. Read 20 Books - I read at least a dozen - Fair Game, The Weight of Water, Three Cups of Tea, An American Wife, Interpreter of Maladies, The Curious Incident of the Dog in Nighttime, Persepolis, Women, Work and the Art of Savior Faire and I am KNOW I am forgetting a few.
9. Start playing tennis again at least 52 times or once a week - i’ve played tennis probably 20 times despite a knee injury.
10. Reduce AIM conversations with T - yes i have reduced
11. yoga three times a week - not even close
12. Cut back on drinking - yes, somewhat
13. Four hours of cardio a week - yes!
14. take vitamins - not at all
15. Speak better German - nope
16. Learn something new - sport, language, technical skill, hobby - Sort of I have been working on my French and Spanish
17. Use hand cream
18. Spend more time with Friends - they’ve all moved to california!!
19. Don’t fly off the handle at Tom - not so much
20. Sex once a week - its good for my skin - not at all

And for the bucket list….

1. Fly around New York in a helicopter - after the crash, not so much interested
2. Climb Mt. Washington - maybe in the fall?
3. Run half marathon - knee injury curtailed that but I really think i can do it!
4. Have a glass of champagne at The Four Seasons - Yes!
5. Go to Mexico, stay in really nice hotel - hopefully over Christmas
6. See all the major New York Museums - nope, although I did get at least two that I have never been to off the list